Preparing for a psychedelic experience is like planning a scuba dive on a warm water reef. You should decide pretty much how deep you want to go, make sure you have a good friend or guide there with you, and set your intent with a general idea of what you would like to encounter.
We become so used to carrying stress that we no longer notice that it is there. Low level anxiety becomes the background noise to our life. Our body in a constant state of alertness, triaging resources to create cortisol at the expense of our other vital hormones.
There once was a man who lived in the wilderness next to a powerful wizard. The word in the glen was that the wizard had the ability to conjure a demon that could accomplish any task. One day the man decides that he is going to trap this magical brokowski, and make him give up his demon.
I was on the plane yesterday and decided to do a guided meditation by one of my Sedona sisters. The theme was a connection to an animal spirit. So as we start the visualization journey I am imagining all of the cool animals I want to connect with. Jaguars, bears, eagles, dragons... But as the meditation takes me to the clearing in the center of the earth where I am going to meet my animal teacher, the only animal there is a rabbit. I keep looking around, waiting for another badass creature to emerge that I can learn from. Nothing happens. Just the same old little rabbit.
There are fears that lie deeper than our fear of death. Fears so great that in the face of them we would gladly turn to death for comfort like an old friend. They lay rooted deep in our subconscious, feeding Resistance and strumming the thought-strings of our mind like a maniacal harpist. These are the fears we must bring to the light of day.
The Toltec concepts of the u2018warrioru2019, the u2018dream of the worldu2019, and the u2018parasiteu2019 form much of my paradigmatic worldview. In addition, Toltec philosophers Carlos Castaneda and Don Miguel Ruiz penned two of my top 10 books. Here is a shorthand version of how the Toltec way ultimately leads to ruthless self love.
In my many experiences with plant medicines I have either personally used or been a part of ceremonies that include the following items. Whether they have inherent power, or are just really good at manipulating our own belief systems (which is a type of inherent power!), I think you might dig them as much as I do.
It took 33 years of searching and a lot of ayahuasca for me to find my rock. It may take some time to find yours. It is a blend of your own hard won spiritual beliefs, and an understanding of your unique self. But once you have found it, and you build your self-love and worth upon it, you are free to play in the sand all you like.